Eleven Months

+And still going strong (: Love you, Mommy NH!

-/+Elections! Monday- introduce and interviews. Wednesday- speech. Friday- WHO! Oh man, I'm nervous. But i think i'll do okay. AHAH. mm.

-I can't seem to talk to you. It DOES seem like you replaced me. Everytime I try, or you're alone, one of those girls walks up to you before I get to say a thing. Or you start talking to them and walk right past me. I thought you wanted me to make the first move? Yeah, I know you. And you know me. I can't talk in front of them, it's too hard. I thought you knew that she was annoying or i didn't like her? I guess it's just a jealousy factor, scale out of ten? FIVE BILLION! Sometime this week, and if not. You can come down and kick my ass all the way to hell.

-You're really annoying me, like I know it's supposed to be friendly, and you say it is. But I know that to you, it's all about winning and beating each other out. I try to be nice, but you just keep throwing all this shit at me. But like everyone else says, it's nothing to worry about. I have a chance, and so does everyone else. So I won't stop worrying about you, and start thinking about myself.

+Shaela, thanks for being there for me.

+/-Thanks to the people who are supporting me, unlike others who say 'they don't care', I know you don't. But it bugs me, you don't care what I do? So I mind as well jump off a bridge, right?

Sometimes love comes around,

&It knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down.

" I realized that when I had you, I felt complete and felt as if i didn't need you as much. But now that i don't have you, I realize how much I need you in my life. "

I feel incomplete, but I'm holding up alright. I'm living the past. I miss you. I miss your "GMS"'s every morning. I miss our 'I love you's. I miss your tightass hugs. I miss seeing your smile. I miss running to you whenever I saw you. I miss your tlc. I miss texting you 24/7. I miss staying up with you all night just you could do your homework. I miss being your best friend. Look, I know I'm being a complete bitch right now if you're reading this, and if you know who you are. But i don't care, It's just hard without having someone to go to. I was able to go to you for anything, but I messed up. Again. It hit me just as hard as it hit you, even if I did this to myself. Just looking for the right time to talk to you, or should I even do that at all? It feels like before, I tried hard but you didn't seem to care,..

OH, +Happy Six Months..

*By the way, if you don't know my brother, don't fucking add him. +Don't add my HS friends, shit. Just cause you know me doesn't mean you could add them. Cause you don't even fucking know them in person. Even if you've seen them before cause i was with them, don't add them, FUCKINGSHIT.

You're getting on my damn nerves, dude. You do so many things that make me furious, but you seem to CONTINUE to do all this shit. I can't believe you. I thought you were different from everyone else?..

adsjk.

Wait, I do "give a f***".

Why do you have to be so damn full of yourself? Try being real for once, it will make you feel good. It's not like you're on top of the world, you're just like the rest of us. Look, okay. We all, ALLLLL, know by now that you think you're the shit, that you're better than everyone else. But you aren't, okay! We're all equal! You're nothing more, nothing less! But if you continue to act like this, you will turn into something less! So you could stop adding all my friends, and stop talking to all of them! Didn't we go over this a long time ago? I thought we covered all of this, no more stealing best friends, all of that. I guess you just didn't comprehend it all, mm? I don't really know anymore, I don't want to be friends with someone who takes all my friends away, thinks they're better than everyone else just cause they have a lot of guy friends. I don't know what to do with you anymore, i truly don't.

I'm holding in there for AD! NI is the cooliest, fershererbro. So much help! I love my sexy/cool friend, fasho. I'm waiting likr JE said (: I'm being strong for TN. I'm 'iunno'ing for AARON :D I love my brother. He left for his retreat today! He didn't even say bye to me, he just left. OH WELL, i'll just bother him tonight (: Just kidddang.

ONE WEEK! I'm doing good [: But, this week has been a drag. Testing is making me tired. I sleep early, but I feel even more tired than when i stay up late. GRADES are slipping. They're about to fall off the fucking cliff, naaaa mean? I haven't been eating alot, but that's good. I've been working out a lot, too! :P Like, 300 situps per day! ;D Fersherderbruh! And, mm. Life's been okay. Just verrrrry stressful.


YESTERDAY! Was the meet. With Ocala, Russel and Leyva. Worked at A-boys high jump for a while, then left after ______________ stopped needing help, ish. Went to the bathroom with Nikki, but it was closed so we went to say hi to Aaron, Kristi, Kristine, Kenny, and Tuan. Then went back down. Heleped with high jump for five more minutes, then walked around with Thy. Wend back up so we could get steak fries from Natalie. haha! Went back down, helped at long jump. I measured, OCALA IS HELLA BEAST AT THAT! Damn. Then, went back up. Saw some people from Russel, and others from Leyva. CHRISTIANNNNNN! (: Oh shiiiiet, I missed him so damn much. Talked to him a lit, hung out with him for a while. Took pictures, blaaabla. SAW WILLIAM, you stupid boy. Just hung around a little, I guess. But yeah, it was a funish meat. I WANT TO GO TO THE ONE AGAINS RANCHO [: See twinsters & sisters and all of them. imyguys<3