Eleven Months

+And still going strong (: Love you, Mommy NH!

-/+Elections! Monday- introduce and interviews. Wednesday- speech. Friday- WHO! Oh man, I'm nervous. But i think i'll do okay. AHAH. mm.

-I can't seem to talk to you. It DOES seem like you replaced me. Everytime I try, or you're alone, one of those girls walks up to you before I get to say a thing. Or you start talking to them and walk right past me. I thought you wanted me to make the first move? Yeah, I know you. And you know me. I can't talk in front of them, it's too hard. I thought you knew that she was annoying or i didn't like her? I guess it's just a jealousy factor, scale out of ten? FIVE BILLION! Sometime this week, and if not. You can come down and kick my ass all the way to hell.

-You're really annoying me, like I know it's supposed to be friendly, and you say it is. But I know that to you, it's all about winning and beating each other out. I try to be nice, but you just keep throwing all this shit at me. But like everyone else says, it's nothing to worry about. I have a chance, and so does everyone else. So I won't stop worrying about you, and start thinking about myself.

+Shaela, thanks for being there for me.

+/-Thanks to the people who are supporting me, unlike others who say 'they don't care', I know you don't. But it bugs me, you don't care what I do? So I mind as well jump off a bridge, right?

Sometimes love comes around,

&It knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down.

" I realized that when I had you, I felt complete and felt as if i didn't need you as much. But now that i don't have you, I realize how much I need you in my life. "

I feel incomplete, but I'm holding up alright. I'm living the past. I miss you. I miss your "GMS"'s every morning. I miss our 'I love you's. I miss your tightass hugs. I miss seeing your smile. I miss running to you whenever I saw you. I miss your tlc. I miss texting you 24/7. I miss staying up with you all night just you could do your homework. I miss being your best friend. Look, I know I'm being a complete bitch right now if you're reading this, and if you know who you are. But i don't care, It's just hard without having someone to go to. I was able to go to you for anything, but I messed up. Again. It hit me just as hard as it hit you, even if I did this to myself. Just looking for the right time to talk to you, or should I even do that at all? It feels like before, I tried hard but you didn't seem to care,..

OH, +Happy Six Months..

*By the way, if you don't know my brother, don't fucking add him. +Don't add my HS friends, shit. Just cause you know me doesn't mean you could add them. Cause you don't even fucking know them in person. Even if you've seen them before cause i was with them, don't add them, FUCKINGSHIT.

You're getting on my damn nerves, dude. You do so many things that make me furious, but you seem to CONTINUE to do all this shit. I can't believe you. I thought you were different from everyone else?..

adsjk.

Wait, I do "give a f***".

Why do you have to be so damn full of yourself? Try being real for once, it will make you feel good. It's not like you're on top of the world, you're just like the rest of us. Look, okay. We all, ALLLLL, know by now that you think you're the shit, that you're better than everyone else. But you aren't, okay! We're all equal! You're nothing more, nothing less! But if you continue to act like this, you will turn into something less! So you could stop adding all my friends, and stop talking to all of them! Didn't we go over this a long time ago? I thought we covered all of this, no more stealing best friends, all of that. I guess you just didn't comprehend it all, mm? I don't really know anymore, I don't want to be friends with someone who takes all my friends away, thinks they're better than everyone else just cause they have a lot of guy friends. I don't know what to do with you anymore, i truly don't.

I'm holding in there for AD! NI is the cooliest, fershererbro. So much help! I love my sexy/cool friend, fasho. I'm waiting likr JE said (: I'm being strong for TN. I'm 'iunno'ing for AARON :D I love my brother. He left for his retreat today! He didn't even say bye to me, he just left. OH WELL, i'll just bother him tonight (: Just kidddang.

ONE WEEK! I'm doing good [: But, this week has been a drag. Testing is making me tired. I sleep early, but I feel even more tired than when i stay up late. GRADES are slipping. They're about to fall off the fucking cliff, naaaa mean? I haven't been eating alot, but that's good. I've been working out a lot, too! :P Like, 300 situps per day! ;D Fersherderbruh! And, mm. Life's been okay. Just verrrrry stressful.


YESTERDAY! Was the meet. With Ocala, Russel and Leyva. Worked at A-boys high jump for a while, then left after ______________ stopped needing help, ish. Went to the bathroom with Nikki, but it was closed so we went to say hi to Aaron, Kristi, Kristine, Kenny, and Tuan. Then went back down. Heleped with high jump for five more minutes, then walked around with Thy. Wend back up so we could get steak fries from Natalie. haha! Went back down, helped at long jump. I measured, OCALA IS HELLA BEAST AT THAT! Damn. Then, went back up. Saw some people from Russel, and others from Leyva. CHRISTIANNNNNN! (: Oh shiiiiet, I missed him so damn much. Talked to him a lit, hung out with him for a while. Took pictures, blaaabla. SAW WILLIAM, you stupid boy. Just hung around a little, I guess. But yeah, it was a funish meat. I WANT TO GO TO THE ONE AGAINS RANCHO [: See twinsters & sisters and all of them. imyguys<3

Break it off to you somehow

+Even if we fight a million times over little things, we could still make it better.

BUT, I think this is my final decision. Every time i see you, I want to break down and cry. Cheesy, but seriously. I can't stop thinking about this, but I'm trying to let it go. I'm dying inside, but I know this is what you want after all of the things I've put you through. Whatever you want is fine with me. I can't live without you, but hurting you isn't worth being your best friend, if i said that right. If hurting you is all I do, I'll stop it here. All of it. Even if I KNOW i can't live without you, this is for the better. I'm letting go, but just know my love is still there..

I know you don't need me, you seem fine flying solo. Maybe I had a somewhat 'secret crush' on you. Don't rightly know. You won't have to worry about me giving you anymore problems than I've already caused you to go through. Do i love you too much? I loved you more than you ever thought, keep that in mind.

If this leads me to crying every single night, it doesn't even matter. I know this is better for both of us, whether we want it or not. Whether I want it or not, I know that we'll do a lot better going our separate ways. I know, this is all my fault and i don't want it to be this way, but I realize that I'm not enough for you. I don't satisfy you as i should/the way you want me to. I'm sorry, with all my heart. And if you think I broke forever, no I didn't. That will always be there, friends or not.

*Third time around, honestly, hasn't hit me as hard as before. I guess i haven't been paying attention that much. Sorry for all the bullshit I've given you. I'll leave it all alone, but thanks for being there.

But don't worry, your secrets are all safe with me ♥ .

-I know you probably think that I'm being a completely self-centered bitch right now, and that's fine. I know I've been acting like one lately. It's okay, I know i deserve it.
100408.

Long Weekend

Saturday- Grandparents' 50th anniversary. Woke up at 10, showered, got ready. Took pictures at home then went to St. Francis. Took more pictures, saw Macaraegs. VINNIE AND LYRIK, the cutest. Mass at 1. Boring, booooring. Ma doesn't think Pa was hot. HAH. Saw cousins. I guess they didn't find their way in cause they didn't come into the church until like five minutes before it was over. Blunt. Took more pictures, sat around, bla. Mmm, then went home. Headed to the Marriott with Auntie, Julianna, Aaron, and Kristine. Stopped by McDonalds first. Saw Sydney and her 'special friend' sitting down at the hotel, so we talked in the Lounge Room with them. BLOCKED OFF JUST FOR US! HA, suckas. Then ate. GOOD FOOD. Cheese and Crackers, bread, lumpia, bacon and shrimp(i think)?, PUNCH! yum, and lots of other stuff. Then went up and down the elevators, pretty fun. These HS guys were freaking duuuumb. "What are you here for? Where's room 344? Do they have different towers?" WTF, how would we know. Ahah, so then told people to sign the guest book and get their cards. When everyone went into the ballroom, me, Aaron, Austin, Sydney, Josh, Vinnie, Lyrik, Christie, LennyBoy, Uncle Roy, Auntie Cathy, mom, dad, Uncle Norman, Auntie Myrla, Uncle Dino, gramma and grampa entered. Introduced us. Then sat down and ate MORE. Crab and mashed potatoes.. O_o. Then the Hiyas Filipino dancing. Then the slideshow. Good memories there (: Then second part of the Hiyas performance. Then Grandparents' speech, that took almost forever. Then the dancing. They played a lot of line dancing and old and Waltzing music, pretty boring. But then they played more upbeat music and me and the SJ Macs' formed a circle and started dancing and yeah. Mostly Aaron, Ricky, Christie and the parents though. Then they played Crank That and everyone sat down except for the Vallejo Cousins. HAHA. Then Cyclone and some weird music. They tried to get us to dance but none of us wanted to. SO. Yeah. Then took pictures, hung out outside of the ballroom. 'Oh, you guys are taking pictures in the mirror just like your Vallejo cousins'. HA, funny funnnnnnay. Aaron and Sydney and their two 'special friends' wanted to drink, but Christie didn't buy them. :P So sad. Waited for everyone to leave, just hung around. Then everyone left around 11 and we packed everything up and went home. Went straight to bed, I was soooo tired. Good day (: I missed the Macaraegs! I haven't seen them in foreverrrrr. Iloveyou all.(:

Sunday- Slept in. Woke up and took a shower. Then went downstairs and ate breakffast, looked at the pictures. Then talked about the party, and messed around. Then parents and Auntie Helen left for uh, Aaron's thingy, so me, Aaron, Austin, and Julianna snuck out to go to the swing, but people were there. So we kicked them off. Then ten minutes later some other kids came and kicked us off, so we just left. Went to the park then back 'cause Julianna was crying since we just ditched her. Woop. Went home, had Root Beer Floats, blasted music, and played Wii. Made more videos! Then started watching Twilight. I fell asleep towards the middle, woke up when parents came home. Started my homework, wrote my essay for track. I think :P Got ready for church. Left at 5:15. Got there and Ms. Peggy or something told us what to do since it was our first communion, haha. Regular mass, but it felt long. And, yeaaaah. Got First Eucharist, then took pictures with the Priest and family after the mass. Then my grandparents were planning on treating all of us out to Chilli's, but fucking Auntie Bim wanted to go to Red Robin, so we went there but the wait was 'too long for her' so we went to Todai. HELLA EXPENSIVE, i feel bad for my gramma, shit. Ate a lot, I GOT HELLA FAT. This weekend was a fattening weekend for me. Wooopsies. Talked to Mikayla a little, then went home. Took a shower, opened out gift. And yeah.

LONG WEEKEND! But it was good getting First Communion and mostly seeing MACARAEGS<3(:

Aft.- Dance.

Yet, another long day, it was alright.

Mmm, nothing new during school. After school was the dance. Uh, it was kinda boring, but I guess it was okay. Ate Dippin' Dots with Adrianna (: ILY. Hung out with her, Martha, Amy, Angela, Diana, Eller, William, Bryce and others. Didn't dance that much, just talked and yeah. Got a picture with NIKKI =) imy. +FREAK! Haha, looooveyou. Mm, stood around most of the time. Barely any people there. DJ was okay, but really i didn't pay attention. Last dance with William, and yeah. Stupid Amy, Adrianna, Karisza, and Martha. HAH, i love you guys. Dorkbutts. Then went home. Took a nap. Woke up, ate pizza. Went to the garage to see what everyone was doing. Putting together the flower vases. Took videos dancing and singing with Julianna. HA ;D I'll put them up later. Mm. Now she's doing karaoke, and I'm just watching her.

OHMAN, tomorrow's the big daaaaay. I can't belive it came so fast (: I'm nervous, but I'm excited too ;] Gonna see ANJELICA, +KEZ & ALAYSIA. Haven't talked to the in a while.

Replaced again ''/. I always see you with _________. Mmm, idk. &sorry.

Builds up.

STRESSSS! Today was a long day.

First Period- Same boring choir, nothing new.
Second period- Played soccer. Lost 0-9. HA, we're cool.
Break-Comfort my girrrrrl. ily.
Third period- Took notes, +almost fell asleep.
Fourth period- Talked about homework. Eller came in. ahah.
Lunch- Talk with Angela, Eller, Bryce, and more. Adrianna's funnay. 'CALL HER A BITCH'. Dork.
Fifth period- Uh.
Sixth period- ^
Track- pictures. HAHA, it was fun/boring. Funny stuff happened, haha. Good times.
After- Went home to pick up Austin, then went to Creek to get Aaron the OSH to get supplies for his project. He didn't find anything, so we went to the church rehearsal for grandparents' golden. Saw Sydney, Joshua, Christie, Aunts, Uncles, VINNIEEEE(: It was fun. Messed around while the parents talked and planned it. Vinnie's a cuuuutie. Love him. Then did a run through. Walk down the aisle, bow, sit, blabla. Saw Leslie! Then went to Denny's with everyone and ate. Austin and Joshua are annoying. Watched Joshue and Sydney fight about DS's. Then watched Josh and Vinnie play Bakugon, or whatever that stuff is called. HAH, it's pretty coolio. But J tries to teach Vinnie things he doesn't even do. Ridiculous. Play games on Sydney's itouch, then finally ate. Went to Eastridge to get brothers' and dad's tuxedos. It took like an hour, hella long. Walked around while we waited, then went into the car with Aaron so i could start homework (which didn't work out) and blast music. It was scary, hella late. Finally got home around 9:30, rushed to do homework. Gonna take a shower sooooon.

Tomorrow's the dance (: I'm excited, but everyone says I'm boring. We'll see about that, but yeah. The weather's cooling down! That's gooooood, but i wanted to wear shorts tomorrow. Whatever.

Everyone's bitching at me and getting mad at me for little things, I just don't get it. So much homework. This has been a long week.Have to study for a test, then do a project that's due Monday. I'm busy alllll weekend, 50th then communion, no time to chillll. Oh man. fml.

MIA.

Why is everyone mad at me? :O. +Nobody tells me anything anymore. Left out =/ bla. There's so much i need to catch up on. FUUUUUUH.

Today was okay. Same-o stuff.

First period- Choir, boring stuff. Ihateit. Oge messed up hella. HAH, but it's coooos. Nothing really happens in that class. I'M SORRY BARRY! I'll make it up to you. Promisepromise. Went to assembly, it was okay I guess. Basketballl, haha that guy is doooope! Butbut, I think it was stupid, actually.
Break- TIFFANY CAME BACK! I missed youuuu. Hung out with Best Friend, Amy, Martha, Adrianna, Diana, Tiffany, Sarah, and them. Talked about stuff, and yeah.
Second period- I hate PE! Soccer stinks, forreals. Played a game, i think we lost. I suck at soccer. So so so so so so so so so so badly. I hate this hot weather D:
Third period- Spence's classss, toook notes. I think? I don't really remember. HA.
Fourth period- Sandoval just talked and yeah I don't remember what happened there either.
Lunch- Hung out with Angelaaaaa. Haven't hung out with her in a while. It's good to catch up w/ you once in a while =). Walked around, went to the basketball court. Talked to people here and there. Talked to beeest and Jayleen for a little, watched them sell tickets. Haha, and yeah.
Fifth period- Talked about Earth Day. SO DAMN BORING. Dayum. Then watched a video. JC and Tiffany threw a paper ball at me. Thanks. I needed that. AHAH.
Sixth period- Some packet thaaang. JC kicked my chair, as usual. Diana was quiet, as usual.
After- Went to grandma's house. Messed around with brother and cousin, it was fun. But they got annoying. Kept on playing with fans and being buttfaces, so yeah. Then went home, the end.

Boooooring day.


IMY Huynh (:<3

Adventure

Yesterday, I ran around the block a few times with Auntie, Austin, and the beezy. Then went to that big tree and found a swing, so we stayed there for a little. Messed around with the big rock for a little. It's peeling. ha.

Today went around the block again. Went to grandparents' house and played ball. Lifted weights. HA. Came back home and went to the tree again. Some girls kicked us out, wtf ? >:O Oh well. It was fun. That's it, I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA GET FAT. ha.

Starter

Yesterday, went to Oakridge and met up with Nikki. Watched Hannah Montana, ha, it was cute (: The little brat had to tag along, it got annoying. But it's ohkay. Caught up with Nikki! Talked a lot, and yeah.

Today, my cousin, auntie, and me are going running around the block (: I need exercise, since yeah. Haha, shit dude I'm scared.

Here we go again, you thinking you're the shit, doing all this stuff that YOU think will impress people. Thanks to Eller, you're lucky you've had more than one chance, I mean it. And I'm not about to give out more chances again.

Partyyyy

Another party, Joshua's 8th. I think? Mm, big boy now (: Kristine came over, picked up Tristan, then went to Dave and Busters for his party. Ate, took a long time for the waiter to get our food! Dang, that pasta wasn't filling at ALL. Watched the kids, played games. Then Sydney, Aaron, Tristan, and Kristine went into the mall so I played more games with Julianna and Austin. Ha, fun. Got lots of candy (: It was fuuuunish. ISH.


*Tomorrow, hanging out with NIKKI! Gonna be fun, imy. (:

People these days

Piss me off. Act like I don't exist. Act all hype when they aren't, or like someone who they're not. Idk, people need to stay tamed, calm the fuck down, too. -_-

I N S O M N I A

I'll stay up til' you're next to me.

Happy Easter kiiiiiddos. Party today. BORING, i blew up balloons, set up in the backyard. Egg Hunt, guess who came? =) Mm, to my surprise. You probably got me in trouble. Ha, it's fine i guess. Talked to Sydney, and that's about it. WOAH, who knew all my cousins had BOYFRIENDS?! Hmm, lots of new stuff today, man. Nobody tells me stuff anymore. Hung out in guest room, but Julianna kept talking smack about me, so I left. And, yeah. Nothing new really, I guess. Julianna, you're annoying. Doing the exact opposite of what i tell you? -_- Dumb broad. Du ma, #$#@!

Honestlyyy,

I dislike how you say you want to change, but continue to do what you've been doing. But whatever. Bla.

Didn't get any sleep last night, so I didn't exactly 'wake up' at any certain time. Stayed around the house, did chores, hung out with family, played gameeees. Went to L & L, some Egg Roll place to order food. I had Masubi for the first time in like, foreverrr. Mmm, tastes good. Love it. Then Walgreen's, and Safeway to get stuff for Aaron and Austin's party tomorrow. Gonna be fun, i guess. Get to see the cousins, it's been a long time. Ish. They COULD be fun sometimes, no, actually. Not really. Going out for dinner later, maybe. Not sure yet.

-Let's make plans, si? (: This break is so plain.
Sunday: Partyyy.
Monday: Valley Fair/Oakridge.
Tuesday: ?!
Wednesday: CGA, maybe?
Thursday-Sunday: Nada. Telll me if you want to make plans, yeaaaaah.

JERK! It's fun. Hah.

FML.

I don't think there's a point in blogging if I'm going to continue to blog about the exact same thing day after day after day. But, idk. Can't help myself, it's killing me inside to know that we aren't friends anymore. Without you, I'm nothing. I can't even think straight without knowing whether you still love me or not. I want to apologize, but when you think about it; there's nothing to apologize for, unless i do one thing. I don't know how to apologize, what am I supposed to say. I treated you wrong, I know. I fucked up, i know. I'm a bitch, i know. Idek anymore. Look, i love you. It was hard for me to lose you, I have no clue how I'm going to live my life without you, but I'll try. For sure, i can get myself into shit. The thing is i don't know how to get out. But anyways.

Today, went to gramma's house. Cousins came over, we didn't even talk. Tfuck is up with that. Did homework, took a long nap. Bla.

I'm done

I'm officially missing you

I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry.

I know you don't look at my blog, and you know who you are. I hate how we always fight, but you know i can't live without you, I've tried, and obviously I don't last that long. I've told you before, i love you so much. More than you think, I'm sorry if I don't show it. I don't know what i was thinking, but it just so happened to end up like this. I hate our little fights, cause they always turn into big ones. I meant it when i said 'forever'. But now, I know you don't believe me anymore. So this is it. I guess. I love you.

''Even if we fight a million times over little things, we could still make it better"

"I'll ask the sun to shine away"

Sure enough, it did. Far, FAR away. Not such a good day, but it was okay i guess. On the +side, talked to Nikki ♥, so many huuugs. MADE MY DAY! =)

Happy Birthday

Brooooother. Aaron. You're old. Fifteen years, you could get a job now ;D And next year you get a car! :O Drive me everywhere i want to go [: I hoooope you had a good one today. And. LOOOOOK AT THESE BABIES RIGHT HERE.
<--, Five more days, and these are all yours :P It's not THAT long of a wait. [: I LOVE YOU BROTHER. Even though you boss me around and is a big meanie had to me sometimes. :P



Today. Mm, it was alright. Still feel the same way I felt yesterday, but now that you at least know how I feel, I'm feeling less insecure. I can see that you're still doing that stuff, but, heeey, i guess It's just your nature to do that.. I thought that after I talked to you would change, a bit, i guess not. I GUESS, that's all I see, that's what i think, THINK.

School was normal.
First period: Same booooringass Choir.
Second period: Ran the mile :O With JC, since Joyce had to ditch me to take pictures. That fatass thought i couldn't keep up. Muaha, WHAT NOW FOOL :P Got a 9:18, SO SHLOOOW. After, watched Valerie play basketball (: She's cute, i love her. The weather kept changing, HOT AND THEN COLD. Valerie is HELLA GOOD and thinking of songs about the weather. :P She's so cool, she has shutter shades made out of pipe cleaners. OOHWEE. Diana gave me chocolate after i ran :D So i ate it like a fucking savage. RAAAAWR.
Break: Nada.
Third period: Spence's test. Talked to Bryce a little, Blabla.
Fourth period: GOD, i hate Sandoval's class. There's like, nooobody to talk to -_- Except Adrienne, but she's all the way in the back at the TA desk. Mm. I almost fell asleep, so boring. Eller came in!(: And, yeah.
Lunch: It was cold. Hung out with Amy, talk to her. I love you smore. So much. Seven more days until two months. *MUAH, i love you.
Fifth period: Bawa's class, same thing we do every day. Take notes.
Sixth period: NOTHING. All we did was work in our Interactive Readers, mm. So boring.
After school: TRACK. Hung out with Thy and recorded the girls' events. It was SUPER DUUUUPER cold. You don't even know. Talked to stinky girl and Martha and #6 and Dum dum and Dumb Broad and Best Friend a little :P Mmm. Went home. Homework. BLA. Wii Sports & Wii Fit is so much fun =) I loooobe it. Ha.

*Oh boooy, what will he say!?

-

Typical Weekend. Went so Sydney's Saturday. Mall and church Sunday.

I said what I really meant. When i hear your name, all that pops into my head is "?". Should I like you? Should i let go? Do i say yes? Or no? Hm.

Brother's birthday coming up in two days, I got his gift. HA. You should be happy. Mm, his party/Austin's Party/Easter Party/Family get together coming up the 12th. Should be fun. I guess.

Mmm.

I'm craving frozen yooogurt, my favorite! =) Annnnyways, this past week has been good. Track manager. It's fun with Nikki, Helena, Thy, Katerina, Kylee, and more. I got a sunburn on my face ]: Oh well, bla.

-OKAY, you again. I was fine with you at firrrrst, but now my BROTHER? O_o i mean, come on be real now. You copy people too much, find your own fucking swag. Please, thanks. I'd appreciate it. Cause it seems like that's all you do, you can't seem to do things on your own. And cheating on stuff, making up notes to get yourself out of shit, how am i supposed to trust you when I know that you do that kind of stuff. OMN.

Bla

Honestly, I miss you like crazy. It was hard enough to let you go, now i just have to get used to it. Oh well, I guess it's a new start. Go out, look for a new best friend. I just wanted to say, that i know that I've made mistakes, lots. Yet, i'm still learning from them. I know, I'm not perfect, I've known that. You always told me that you'll be my best friend forever, I guess we just missed the 'forever'. I wish i could go back to Friday Night, and fix what I did wrong. I know we've been in a lot of fights. I just didn't know that this one would go as far as it has already. Like you said, "Whatever".

'True Friend

Happy Birthday Amy

I love you mucho. 13 years. You're old, man.

Amy's party was today at Adrianna's. Went there at 6. Backyard- Silly string, lumpia, soda, loud music, dancing, musical chairs (almost), truth or dare, birthday cake, caking. It was fun. Still waiting for ANGELA to send me the pictures. =)* VVVVVVV I saw Adrian! Best friend came, what did i do?! Hung out, just talked with everyone. It was a good night.

"Best Friends"..?

Wow, you bitch. I have the right to say that, honestly. First you steal my friends, then go off telling lies? I knew this was gonna happen, coming from you. You were there for me in the beginning, but i'm gonna have to let this friendship go. You said you didn't care about yours & ______'s friendship, but obviously, you do.. If you want to talk shit about someone you actually care for. and act like you don't care for them, do it to someone else. I can't even trust you anymore. &That party? You invite my BEST FRIENDS to go home with you, but not me. I thought i was ONE of your "best friends"? Oh wow, girrrrrl you're shady, shady shady shady. And when he told me you named all your "best friends", Half of them you never talk to! And some you didn't even know their damn last names! Yeah, what a best friend you are. You're just one of those who says stuff to make others happy, i just know it. I know you. I don't like how you are, now. But, i guess you CAN steal my best friends away. But hey, that's what you're good at, right? Making new friends, stealing all their friends, leaving them out, telling them stupid ass lies. I want to confront you, tell you off, so damn bad, but just think of it, what would others think. THAT'S WHAT I THINK ABOUT FIRST. NOT MYSELF, OKAY. WHAT OTHERS WILL THINK BEFORE I DO STUPID SHIT. Real Eyes, Real lies, damn Realize. That shit is true. You're just the "real lies" part. I think i'm done with our friendship, for now. I want to forget you, but i THOUGHT, you weren't going to be one of those friends who comes and goes. I guess I misjudged you. So much for best friend.

In place

Almost there, real close.

Went to the volleyball game! Saw brother looove &Nathan [: Sorry i didn't really talk to you guys, lol. And all those other Leyva kids. Nice to see you, Michellle (: We got there kinda late, but it was okay. Girls won, woot. I LOVE YOU NUMBER SIX! Boys didn't, but it's ohkay. Afterrr, walked to Jamba Juice. And yeah, blaaa.

*Should i run for president or secretary? =)

FFFFFFFFFFF.

I saw it all. I feel so replaced, on the highest level known to man. BOOOY! What other ways can my day get any worse? I don't even know who to trust or go to now, knowing they all talk shit. Is that even true -_- I wanna know. You f/cking bitch, I DO hope you go to EV, cause i don't need any of this shit anymore, honestly. You were never a friend, and never will be. All you do is talk about me behind my back, then come to me saying i'm your "BEST FRIEND" and tell me stuff. So if i were you, i would stfu cause i have stuff on you, girrrl. I don't even know WHY i still hang out with you, bad decision, frrreal.

I don't feel as important as before, knowing that they never really cared. And i wasted my time half of the year. Only because he's my brother, you looked out for me and pretended to be my friends, but I was not even that important at all. I'm always being thrown around the field, not finding one friend, ONE FRIEND that's always there and i could go to for sure, who i have never gotten into a fight w/ yet or hasn't talked shit. I want someone who doesn't pretend; to save me from this mess I'm in. From now on, I'm not listening to what ANYBODY says. Cause this is BS. &Seeing her there with you guys makes me feel replaced. I know, i haven't been there in a while. It's cause I realized y/g ignore me, a lot. +That's why I didn't go, who would i hang out with? I don't know who to go to now. FMLFMLFML, forrrrrreals.

"I'm gonna love you then, now and forever.."

asdfjk.

Haven't been blogging the past few days, soo just a few thiiings.

-I know, i know. You're my friend, yeah yeah. But I don't want to be friends with someone who tries to replace me. Honestly, I feel like you've been using me to get closer to my other friends, just saying. I could HELLLLLLLLLA tell that you've been talking to my other friends a lot, right after i get close with them. Are you trying to make them like you more than me..? Or is it just me. Idfk anymore. I still wanna be you friend, but you're making it seem unlike a friendship, and more like a competition. I mean, come on now. "Hi Best friend!"?! Be real. That person is MY best friend, and you've known that from the start. I was right there, come on now, kid. I get annoyed when you get lazy. Everyone has their lazy moments, but you do a lot. Knowing what you DON'T do right, makes me unsure about trusting you. Should i still be friends with you, or should i let our friendship go? Should i tell you? Am i exaggerating too much? Someone tell me, thanks.

-I hate when you get a new girlfriend, especiall this one. Honestly, she reminds me of ________a. She's just like her. I wish you stayed single, so i don't have to worry about you being bitchy to anyone else, or worry about you doing anything bad. I've begun to lose trust in you, this year. I can't tell if you like or not anymore. I don't dislike her, i'm just saying.

-Imissyouuuuu. We haven't been hanging out for a few months, MONTHS now. So let's hang out. Ifly, (:

-I'm sorry that had to happen to you, love you. ]:

-I'm so confused about who's still my friend, who are my real friends, do they really like me, are they just acting, who still WANTS to be my friend. !? If i could, i would take it back to the beginning of the school year, when everything was clear and i didn't have to worry about any drama. I miss the beginning of the year, esp. the first day. I remmeber the WHOLE entire day. The laughing, the smiles, the love everyone shared. Nikki introducing me to everyone, everyone was hella excited. Now all my life is full of drama.

*LATE!

Where my party people at.

Shaela's birthday party (: Iloveyou. Dance! &Eat and all that stuff. Danced with Adrianna, Amy, #6, HALEY, all of them (: ADRIENNE! My TA, i'm dead meat, son! Haha [: YES YOU CAN DANCE, CUTEEES =) It was alright. Some people there that shouldn't have been, BUT, it's all good. >:) People kept staring at me D: Saw Payton and Kaitlyn! I miss them (: +Mayheyy, Joey, & Sp. I miss my sexy love! Those cookies were good. HA, yeah. People brought back memories D: but yeah, i'm cool c(: Some people got freaky :O *Aheeeeeem. But yeah. I GOT MY PIGGY BACK RIDE =) Am i really that fat? D:


*HAPPY NINE MONTHS, NIKKI HUYNH. Three more months left, tell me. WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO ):

HA. HA. HAHAHA.

You just NEVER stop, do you? You're fucking lazy, you're a fucking jocker, you fucking annoy the hell out of me sometimes, i swear. Yeah, you're my friend, and i love you, BUT. ASKDJ.You tell me stuff that's a LIE. "I hate him, i hate her." YEAH, you know you love them! So stop telling me that stuff. It's gonna be funny when you don't pass High School, HAHA. You're so unpredictable, sometimes. SAYING you'll do something, but end up backing out in the end. Stick with what you say, ohkay! I know you've told me you hate how people jock, but you know you do it, too. So don't tell me you hate it if you jock me so much, and my friends too. That's what annoys me most. Don't take this the wrong way, you've just been getting on my nerves lately. You know i love you, tho..

Make my day.

I miss you too =) Boring stuff nowadays. Ms. Kolber may be the worst teacher ever, I hate choir. Noooothing much to blog about, but i love my best friend!(: And i miss my mommy and Helena. <3

I'll ask the sun to shine away

Cold and rainy day. Ran the mile. Okay day. People really get me nowadays, you guys get so annoying. Even when i don't do anything to you, you cuss me out or yell at me. What's up with that, i don't understand anybody anymore. I swear, if someone annoys me again, I'm gonna shoot them. HA, sikes.

DANCE.

Was hella boring, but it's all good. And NO, no slow dances for me =). Cept with BOYFRIEND Adrianna and MOTHER Nikki (: Hungout with Adrianna, Martha, Amy, Eller most of the time. Afterwards, Nikki came home with me. Computer, watched Freedom Writer, In Her Shoes, and Scary Movie 4. Slept around, two? Then Saturday, slept in. MADE VALENTINE COOKIES, ha. Ate pizza, went to the Civic Center for Fantastics. Good job Aaron :P And all your other friends, Haha. Went home, MORE PIZZA. Aaron tickled Nikki to death. I FELL ASLEEP /= And they ditched me to the park! Then woke up at four/fiveish and went downstairs to watch some movie with them. SLEEP! Woke up, ate, took Nikki home. (: Reunited! It was lots of fun.

*IDK, do i want it back, or do i stay where I am right now. Am i wasting my time? I don't know whattodo, so we'll seeeeeee, &yeah. =)

Lent

I'm gonna give up shopping. (: I'll TRY, but if not.-I have a backup plan, which i haven't really though of yet. HA. PRESSSSURE! It's okay, you guys did good =) 'CEPT FREAKING DIANA, Haha :P I'm sorry ily. And yeup I did it, if i didn't tell you already. OHKAY YEAH, it was an okay day.

Hella Stressed, Hella Messed.

School's back in session, stress is back on. I've been getting lazier and lazier each day. Forgetting homework at home, studying for test. Blablabla. I need to try to keep my grades up. I honestly think i wasted all my fucking time doing that project. My partner didn't help me ONE BIT, hella shady. I'm gonna be the one failing this project even though I did all the work. Cause she took all the stuff from my house and i can't even practice, bitchy. I blame you if i mess up in front of the whole fucking class. So don't trip if i'm mean to you, you know what you've done.

PEOPLE!

Stop, jocking, PLEASE. =) Yeah thanks i'd appreciate it. Cause all you're doing is making yourself look bad! HA :D, i went there. Find your own stuff, and quit copying others. And OTHERS, stop saying you don't like them even though you do the exact same thing.

Anyways, yesterday was fun. (=

I missss them.

*I miss them.

First half.

Of the break has gone good, i guess.
Saturday- Austin's birthday & Valentine's Day. Went to the mall.
Sunday- SF project. Confessions of a Shopaholic with Adrianna and Martha. (Happy three months, Adrianna♥)
Monday- Adrianna's house, GOT FAT! =)
Tuesday- Stay home.

*I hope this break gets more bussssy, so hit me up! (: I'm busy Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday, so other then that, tell me if you're free! (Even if i'm sick, tehehe)

Eight Months.

061308. NikkiKimberlyHuynh, love you(:

Day before break! It was good, i guess. Need to bring everyone's gifts cause FAHK, i forgot them at home. -_- +I woke up late, my day didn't start out good, but it got better. STUPIDANNOYINGFUCKER, get off my jock. Just cause you didn't get anything doesn't mean that you can just start bugging me and taking my stuff, shfionhaefevbvhisujfk, sh/t. &Don't ask me if i got you something if you didn't get me anything, no offense, but you're getting on my nerves, and I'm about to go ninja on your ass, i swear. UGH.

*WINTERBREAK! Someone chill with me<3

How can i trust you when you deserve to leave

Are you mad, or are you not?! On aim you act like a jerk, in person you act normal, you're acting all weird now. I don't hate you, i was just annoyed. You were making it all awkward, and now i have. Now what do i do; I'm sorry? I didn't mean to take it this far. I don't want to be any more than friends, and no less than friends. Just friends, that's it.

Ahhh, all those good times. Reminisce.

Every time i try to leave, something keeps pullin' me back, me back.

*weekend.

'Reunited & it feels so good." (: PCN, fun. Sleepover, funner. Next day, funnest. =)<3

i <3 beautiful!

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YOU ARE SO EFFING COOL! Even though I've only seen you like 2 times, you are so fucking awesome. We enjoy sex, especially the one in the cup that you can find at jamba! Sometimes I think you are mental because you dont know what some stuff is, but thats what I'm for! For some reason, you happened to know ALOT about sex... EXPLAIN MISSY! Eating cup noodles causes orgaSIMs! Well I'm bored and I did this just to say......



HI





Someone who makes my day^(:

Happy Five Months, Jimmm!(:

Loves you tiffany<3 HAIRCUT!

Friday.

Long, cold & wet day. Same as usual, gay/boring day. Stupid people saying how they hate when people bite, and right after they do the EXACT same thing, oh wow stupid bop. Alll this other stuff. Too much drama for me to handle now. /=


*I miss KHO, and JLV.

Six months back.

I hate '09, and there you have it.

A day gone to waste.

All those tears for nothing, I knew from the start you wouldn't be leaving, but i cried anyways. Damn, what a fucking WASTE. Next time you tell me something, actually mean it. Forreals now. That day was actually going good, until came up to me. I'm "happy" & all, but you literally lied to all of us, and now you have to catch us all back. Cause of what you've done.


Shiet Nigga.

I just love

How I help you with everything and all you do is throw more shit it me. (: NOT I've been here for you, & all you do is throw all your problems at me. I love you, but i hate how you always tell me stuff like I'm not supposed to be doing it. And after that, you say you love me and that I'm always there for you and you'll be there for me, but you being there for me isn't ALL that true. I'm not gonna be your scratching post anymore. Find someone else to give all your problems to and bitch at. It's not that i don't want to hear about your problems, but that you do things that make me feel.. left out. Sick & tired of this, yet i still love you very much.

Jaunary 22.

Suppose to be good throughout the whole day, but the beginning of the day sucked like a bitch. I almost didn't have a ride to school, but Helena's mommy brought me. I left my binder at home so i didn't have half of my homework. or my ID card, or my note, or my money. -_- Towards the end of the day was good. TACO BELLL!(= haha, cutie ily. &Went to the game! Didn't cwalk with Amy cause cause cause straw buddy wasn't there! His mom got mad cause he didn't buy his tree pipfty straws. BUT IT'S OKAY (= Cheeled with Adrianna, Amy, Alyssa, Martha, Angela, Shaela, Andrew, ELLER!, Barry, William, Louie, Leyva people, and others. (= Barry's mean. &I finally got to see BEAUTIFUL!, Teejay & Nathan. LOL, all you balllers are cool, even if you don't know how to tie shoes! (x But i lost a best friend, & made a new one :O I hate you Barry, )':

Memories.

Wherever i go, they just keep chasing me, telling me to come back. I miss everything, but changes happen, & I have to get used to them. Even if it's hard, I'll have to let some of these memories go. /= I miss all the hangouts. Yeah, my new schedule is okay, but i'm gonna miss THY in first period & JAMINE in second. ): But now i have first period with wife, Best Friend, & Alyssa! But wait, ew it's choir. Second period with sister!(: All of my day was okay/good, but the reminiscing of memories is giving me a strange feeling, yet, it's a good one. (=

Decisions, decisions.

I don't like having to choose over people, but it seems like I have to. It's not who asks first, or second. It's who i choose. And i don't intend on hurting anyone.. but it seems as if that might be how it's gonna go.

Friday- Shaela & Martha came over. Told Louie, Eller, & Andrew to come. But f/ckin` Eller fell asleep! LMFAO, then ANGELA came. Went to the park, took pictures :P Then Martha left, &Shaela & Angela slept over. Went downstairs! Ate, guitar hero, phone. (= Fun stuff. Then went to sleep at like 2.
Saturday- They woke up late so Barry had to wake up Angela, HAHA! &Then they got picked up. Did my chores & all that stuff. Then went to ADRIANNA'S Ate, made cookies, ate, drank soda, watched tv, went to grocery store, talked, TRIED to watch Unborn, but it didn't work. Talked a lot then went to sleep at like 1 or 2 :P
Sunday- Woke up at likeee, 9:45. Adrianna was already awake & didn't wake me, so yeah. We did the same stuff as the day before & ate PANCAKES WITH HELLA SUGAR & BUTTER. mmmm(: Changed, got ready, computer, talk talk talk. Got picked up at ONE! Went to Red Lobster, had more macaroni. Went to Eastridge, got stuffff. &Off to church later. I'm getting hella lazy with homework & projects. Caught up in drama. Trying to fix my own problems.

Happy 7 Months

Momma (: I miss you<3 In my room. Lights off. In my bed. Under the covers. Playing video games and eating hot pockets. Let's o=do that again (:


7 months means 4 more months til school ends. /=

Perfect equation.

Not. So much drama. My dad just left do San Diego. I might move there. My cousin is being the annoying b/tch she is. Austin is crying. I can't help Aaron with his science project. I can't understand my math homework. Guy problems x3. No, TIMES FIVEBILLION. Friend problems. I wasn't able to go to the mall cause they cancelled, but now they can?! -_- Friday next week, I'm not even SURE if it's safe to go. They hate him, she hates her, i hate her, he LIKES her. WTF. I can't handle this sh/t. Everyone's putting all the pressure on me & i don't know what to do or how to fix things anymore. I've been so focused on other peoples problems, and i haven't been solving mines. FORGET THIS. There isn't one night where i can sleep peacefully, and think about GOOD things. The ONLY GOOD THING GOING THROUGH MY MIND IS YOU. You're the only one who can clear things for me, but when i stop thinking about you, everything goes back to normal. Drama. OTHER peoples problems. People hating each other. Forget it forget it forget it.

Fakes.

Beezy.-I don't know why you could hurt her like that. You just took her heard and cut it into two. But that's okay, it's done with, and now you need to prove yourself a true friend to her. &If you don't you just completely 100% lied to me. Show her that you're a REAL friend to her, & not that you're a fake person. &Plus, WHY did you choose her? It's not just looks, but then again. That's not my choice, it's yours.

-Now that i think really hard about our relationship, and where it's gone, I can't help but want to go back into the past. I remember i used to cry myself to sleep cause of this. &I feel like we just stopped talking. Our conversations don't even last that long. Our hugs aren't as important as they used to be. Our hang outs are the same than before. I miss that. And if you think I replaced you, i never did. I never would. I would never be able to do that to you. I wanna go back. i wanna go back. I wanna go back. i wanna go back. i wanna go back.



):

Week one.

First 7days of ohnine started out pretty GAY. Drama drama drama. SOOO GAY. I can't wait until tomorrow, "SATURDAY" when helena gets to SINGGGG (: &Sunday: FAMILY DAY<3>It's not my first priority. &It's not up to me. Even though it's kinda bothering me &weighing me down. Grades, friends, no phone, guys, EVERYTHING. RAWR, gayness.